1 Year

Dear Joe,
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This past year has been so, so strange since you left us here on Earth. I am forever grateful to know that you no longer suffer. You enduring the suffering that comes with cancer was heartbreaking to watch with no way to ease that pain. I don’t make a huge deal about it to the world, but there is comfort gained for me in being able to sit still and quiet and speak to you whenever I feel it’s necessary or just want to. I asked you back in February to watch over me. It certainly feels as if you are doing just that.
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My grieving process has been met with severe opposition by many and understanding by others. Unfortunately, I think you would be sorely upset and disappointed in those that have given me a hard time and continue to do so occasionally. I have done everything in my willpower to ignore nastiness and ignorance. Not sure if you can reach out from where you are to soften some hearts, but we both know how stubborn some can be. I’m simply moving on with my life. You made me promise. I’m trying to honor you and your memory as I can by not stagnating.
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I have my days when I am still nostalgic or even pensive but they are becoming fewer over time. I am more apt to reflect back on good times and happiness. I don’t want to remember you so sick. You were such a significant part of my young adult life.
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Over the last year, I have been focusing on just getting through each day. #daybyday has been a serious way of life. I have no time for hatred toward others, plots, or schemes. My focus is on positivity. It makes my heart hurt to see how bitter some are even a year later and unable to let themselves move forward.
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I will always love you, Joe. My heart has healed to allow me to let others in again, which I know you approve of. Thank you eternally for having shared life with me.
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Love, Amber

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