The End of 2015
As the last day of 2015 winds down, I cannot help but reflect on the year that has passed. 2015 quickly spiraled away from a promising, joyful year with a strong beginning, to one that I desperately wanted to see the end of. Today, tonight, I get to bid 2015 a not so fond farewell.
From injuries, to deaths, to peoples’ loss of pregnancies, to people dealing with first and secondary infertility, to cancer diagnosis, to stress, heartache, and a desolate state of parts of humanity, it has been a daunting last 6-8 months. I cannot deny that there was some good, some trials overcome. I began blogging more. There were successful pregnancies, engagements, marriages. My creativity grew. The good just never seemed to balance the hardships.
I am holding out hope that 2016 will not only be better for me and my loved ones, but for the world in general.
The main thing I learned, that I am taking away from 2015, is the value of living each day. I am talking about waking up, acknowledging that waking up in itself is a blessing. Taking stock of what you have to be grateful for, even in the midst of fear, stress, anxiety. Knowing that each day you reach the end of is priceless.
How often to we go to bed fretting about the next day? How often is stress over things out of our control overwhelming? How often do you let fear or anger dictate your actions?
You have to let go of it all. Yes, prep yourself to face each day. At the end of your day, let it all go. It doesn’t matter that nothing on your list got done and four more things got added. It doesn’t matter that you struggled at work. It doesn’t matter that everything felt like it was against you, or your health was poor, or life just sucks.
A new day is around the corner. Everything that went wrong is done. It might still be wrong tomorrow, but take time each night to realize you made it. Everything could feel hopeless, but you truly do not know what the next day may bring. Anything can change in the mere space of seconds, milliseconds.
I will be back tomorrow. I want to recap 2015 and welcome 2016 on January 1st. To everyone going out tonight, be safe. Be smart. Enjoy yourself. My husband and I are currently enjoying dinner out. We are considering going to First Night Boston for the midnight fireworks. Who knows yet if we will?